I couldn't think of a topic for this blog but really I should write one as it's been a while. There are several things I don't understand these days, but I'm starting to get a lot clearer on the things that do make sense.

Work has got a lot better recently. I've been recruiting which means I've been delegating, and all in all that's been making my working life feel a lot less cluttered and helps me to actually push forward with the 'proper stuff'. i'm liking being a manager a little bit more than i did before and i'm a bit more contented with the 'detatchment' that has developed between myself and the people around me because of my job's position.

On the downside, I am experiencing a long, drawn out and significant departure from my family which has made me think in great amounts of detail about 'the bigger picture', i guess, what i want, how exactly i'm going to manage to get it, and whether i'm willing to wait a little while at least, or work through whatever stands in my way, before i can get what people constantly tell me i should have, or i deserve.

The idea of deserving stuff is a bit interesting. Or maybe it's a grey area. After all, every day i feel like i'm surrounded or confronted with people who have things that they don't deserve, and on the other hand the world is full of people who never really get what they deserve, whether it's bad or good.

I've been reading up on personality types lately too,a and discovered that as an 'enfj' personality i have very set opinions on right and wrong, and get all of my input/emotions/judgements on everything from the people around me. which is definately true if you read my blog backwards. well, actually read back in time, as backwards would be difficult.

I've never really taken much out of personality tests in the past but when i read my enfj profile it pretty much had me completely pegged. stuff like 'should spend time alone but doesn't like it' is me right down to a tee.

I've been thinking about all of the people I have in my life and exactly how I interact with them, and what it means. I spend a lot of time analysing how i feel and 'why' these days which isn't necessarily healthy but might help me in the long run when making decisions about what i should do in the future, or who i should be with.

sorry if that all sounded a little blathery but I'm glad it's the weekend.

xk